Feeling Unwell? Get Excited!

Feeling Unwell? Get Excited!

Why on earth would feeling unwell be exciting?

This week, I haven’t felt too crash hot…

I’ve only had a cold, but it’s a reason to celebrate. Why?

Because it’s a sign my boundaries have been pushed, that I’ve stepped outside of my comfort zone and my ego is throwing a tanty…

My ego’s scared because I’ve stepped outside of my comfort zone…

After healing my body of stage four endometriosis after 18 years back in 2009, when doctors had told me it was incurable, it finally became obvious to me the healing powers we have within ourselves…

It made me realise that while we can create what we want in our lives, we’re also the creators of what we don’t want in our lives…

And that illness is simply a manifestation of the areas where we are resisting our true calling…

It comes from living your life according to the beliefs of others…

Hanging around with people who keep you where they want you…

Refusing to forgive…

Forgiveness is everything…

Forgiveness is NOT about saying what happened was right…

Forgiveness is about refusing to let the events of the past to dictate your future…

Refusing to carry the weight and burden of previous events with you, any longer…

In my case, I became unexpectedly estranged from my Dad when I was 20…

For 18 years, I held onto the trauma of being abandoned by someone I thought would be there forever and loved me unconditionally…

For 18 years, I held onto that frozen moment in time, hoping to wake up each morning and life would be back to how it was…

But what I didn’t realise, in all that time, is that I wasn’t seeing the bigger picture…

That for me to grow, he had to leave…

For the 18 years I held onto that trauma, it caused me to be hospitalised five times for surgery and many years of taking horrible drugs to combat it…

And all I was doing was fighting…

Fighting to hang onto what was instead of seeing the upheaval as a part of the process, guiding me on the path to my true calling…

This wasn’t about me being deserted by my Dad…

This was about two souls’ paths crossing for as long as they needed to and then going their separate ways…

I was aware we could create magic in our lives but I didn’t realise we are also the creators of the shit that goes on in our lives…

Learning that changed everything…

I can still pin point the moment I released everything…

I could feel an instant change in every cell in my body, and from that point on, my body started to heal…

And from that moment on, I haven’t had any major health issues since…

And yet, growing up, I always had something going on with my health, simply because I was put into the boxes of the times I grew up in instead of being allowed to fully express myself…

That doesn’t mean I don’t have moments like this week, where a cold can creep in…

But now, when it happens, I look at the underlying emotional reason for it…

This is not a series of unfortunate events…

It’s a moment to be celebrated…

It’s my body showing me the way, where I’m resisting and where I’m breaking through to the next level…

And in knowing this, I can begin the healing process, speed it up and come out the other side stronger…

How do you talk to your body?

Do you say nice things or are you always putting yourself down?

Your cells are always listening…

If you go on and on about how you’re not feeling well…

You’re actually revelling in being unwell…

Your cells are taking that on board and they’re creating exactly what you’re asking for…

To be unwell…

In my case today, I’m not feeling great, but deep down inside underneath it all, I am well…

And that’s the focus I’m taking…

I’m using the fact that something physical is going on to guide me on my path…

I’m looking at what’s affected and what’s happened in this past week to push my boundaries…

Health issues are resistance to your soul’s desires…

So, why have I had a cold this week?

I had an extraordinary week last week while performing and broke through into new ground…

New ground that had previously scared me…

I had to actually slow down time and allow myself to flow through it, allowing everything to unfold and not fight it…

I was allowing myself to be seen…

Seems like a silly thing for someone who’s been in the entertainment industry for 25 years to say, but for all that time, I’ve been hiding…

I’ve been so used to performing at venues to the back of people’s heads while they watched the football, that it became a comfort zone…

One I had created to keep myself safe…

But last week, people were sitting there, watching me perform…

All eyes were on me…

It was confronting, but I allowed it to flow, and the response was fantastic with people actually taking the time to compliment me so much I wasn’t sure I’d get my head out through the front door, and leave great reviews online…

And all of this is because I’ve started doing stand up comedy…

In stand up, there’s a bright spotlight in your face and you can hardly see the audience, but you know they’re all sitting there, facing you…

You can hear their laughter, but you can’t see all of their faces…

You also have to write and perform original material…

It’s a completely different experience to actually being able to see the backs of people’s heads whilst performing cover versions of songs…

It’s been a tough six months emotionally pushing through this but the benefits are starting to pay off in so many areas of my life…

And so, that’s why this week, I haven’t felt 100%…

And that’s why I’m excited about it…

Don’t get me wrong…

I’m excited to get well again…

But, I know that if I just sit with my experiences of last week and of my body being out of whack this week because of it, I will heal faster and grow from the experience…

If I choose to focus on not feeling well, boo hoo to me, and NOT see it for what it is, I’ll go back to square one…

It’s the same as someone who signs up for the gym, they’re all ready to go and BOOM!

They come down with the flu for several weeks…

To some, it might just seem like bad luck…

To me, they’ve pushed their comfort zone boundaries and their ego is reacting…

I saw it time and time again when I was a Personal Trainer…

I also saw it time and time again when I was the co-producer of Australia’s biggest national karaoke competition…

Come the day of the finals there would always be a drop out rate of several people who woke up that morning with no voice…

Honestly… It is no coincidence…

It’s quite interesting when you start delving deeper into the messages your body is sending you…

Illness is simply showing you where you’re resisting life…

You have the power within you to be happy and healthy…

It all starts with you.

Kathryn xx

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